And she's right, I have not been putting my thoughts out there for a while.
I suppose it's because the pace of my life has picked up, or at least is flowing much differently than before. While certainly Krissy is much busier at home than I am, at work and at home there's always a little something to do these days. The twins are just getting so big, and now that they're playing more they simply demand more of our attention.
Further, I have not been playing much poker. I am playing about three times a month live (which is only because I have an amazing wife who lets me sneak out of the house), but I am playing even less than that online. Online poker just does not work for me with babies in the house -- I can't focus on poker when the twins are there and may need my attention (I had concentration issues already!). Therefore, I play bad and I've lost interest. Maybe when they are sleeping more soundly and can entertain themselves a bit more I will pick it back up, but until then nothing but games with a pause feature for me.
Live poker is a different story. That's probably because I am able to get out of the house to do it, and thus distractions are at a minimum. Since early April I have only had two losing sessions (of nine), and both were only for about a buy-in. Every other session has been a win (in two cases big wins), and I have been very pleased with my ability to play better poker. Hey, in the grand scheme of things this is ultra-low stakes, but if I can't beat this game I can't beat anything bigger, either.
There are two things in my life, however, that need some work. One is my health. I'll probably always be a big guy, but I need to get focused on being a healthier big guy. I am trying to watch what I eat, and Krissy encouraged me to ride my bike more often. Hopefully this will be the start of something good.
The other thing is relationships. The poker players I play with are generally good people, but they are not friends I can turn to in need or people to share deeply with. Several of my real friends have gotten tied up in their own lives, kids, etc. lately, and I need to push through that and make sure we're connecting more frequently. I also really owe my best friend a call.
